Our mom and baby weekend

Daddy and big sister are off to a soccer tournament, so Ruby and I are having our first weekend solo. It has been less than 24 hours and Ruby has tried new food (cherries and pineapple), gotten her third tooth and been to visit family. We are off to the beach later today too. 

This weekend is sort of symbolic for me in a weird way. My choice to stay behind with the baby alone says something about my increase in confidence as a mom. Sure, I spend lots of days alone with Ruby and my husband works a lot, but this solo weekend was by choice. I find myself gaining confidence in not only my decisions as a parent, but in my every day life. Confidence was hard to come by in my younger days and I didn't go out and do things for fear of being judged. With age that very slowly became less of an issue. With this new role as a biological parent, I have found a new kind of confidence that surprised me. Perhaps this incredibly important role put in to context the ridiculous things that I worried about before. I certainly have moments (or entire days!) where it all seems too hard or too exhausting, but overall I am the happiest and most confident that I have ever been. I really believe that I was born to be a mother and am so unbelievably grateful to have the chance to fulfill that role.